My Autonomy’s Conquest

The beauty of POLARITY’s music is as a listener, you can either choose to put yourself in a members shoes or decide to interpret the music and lyrics for yourself, to apply to the ideals and issues you face every day in your unique life. So what’s unique in my life that this song applies to? What is my conquest for autonomy?

Well it’s not the happiest story of all time, but it sure is the un-sugar-coated truth and will explain my recent absences from social media. Over the last few years, I’ve noticed the comings and goings of some abdominal pains. They have been diagnosed and treated previously as a variety of things, once an injury, another time an infection. At some point in late February, these minor cramps began to turn into pains, inflammation and subsequently difficulty with a variety of bodily functions, that wouldn’t go away. Upon further study it appears the source of these pains has been a problem with my prostate. It’s important to share this with you because it has now become my sole conquest for autonomy. This is the next big fight in my life and, let’s get one thing straight, the next win under my belt. The Cole’s notes for those learning this the first time; I am currently on medical leave from my job. Physically, I’m limited, but I’m still able to play with the band for now. I’m still unaware of exactly what is wrong, but I have failed numerous prostate exams and am scheduled to see a Urological Oncologist at the end of June. 

My apologies for the sad news, but this is just another battle to fight and win like so many before and since we try to be close to our fans, especially our local following who have become close friends over a decade, you deserve to be in the loop because it may cause some changes to happen in the near future. I am concentrating on taking care of myself, and contributing in any way I can to Polarity while you guys get to soak up twelve tracks of new material. This song is an audio representation of our past conquests, and an inspiration for tomorrows. Until next time, concentrate, and meditate.

By the way, nothing makes me happier than to see your responses to this song, especially the one mentioning how there is no longer a need to wait for the Tool album… man… I don’t have words for that lol! From all of us, thank you so much.

Jason Swait

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Autonomy’s Conquest

Autonomy’s Conquest

Passive submission and i’m paralyzed by a hijacking of my brain
with no one but self to blame
illusion clear, it’s strength I fear
lullaby lies and i’m going insane
with this fierce imagination 

I’m faithfully just a servant to you
subject to your pitiful rule
In this Fortress of fear I call Fortitude here
Conquer conquer

Now here you come just as I think that I am starting to win your game
obliteration of my faith in
myself my dear fallacy’s here
Projecting lies but i see you guise
all i do is oblige

I’m faithfully just a servant to you
subject to your and your pitiful rule
In this Fortress of fear I call Fortitude here
Conquer conquer

You take me to walk around my fears in the night in the night
it’s dark and it’s cold with these souls and i fear that i might
become one of these though i want to transcend to the light
your leading me by the stench of your words and they bite

My hopes of becoming something other than this frozen fright
with every step that I take i feel your knuckles squeezing tight
with every breath that i take you restrict me finding light
with every thought that i think you do your best to ignite

Doubt within self and the need to feel pain
Pain within self and the need to feel shame
Shame within self and the need to place blame
blame within self and this mind fucked chess game

You take me to walk around my fears in the night in the night
it’s dark and it’s cold with these souls and I fear that I might
become one of these though I want to transced to light
I’m Looking for truth external to what i know is right

Open Heart
Concentrate and Meditatie
She said
The choice is in your perception
Balance mind in focused time
Breathe breathe breathe
Balance mind in focused time

Self assured I will not be your fool
Im a subject of me and by Free Will I Rule
In this fortress of Will I call fortitude here
I will Conquer

Read fear to find truth
Awaken to what defines you
Autonomous is what you are
Dependant fear leads you into the dark

Rise up

~ Jasmine Virginia

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