Introducing to the world for the first time, EVENT HORIZON.
We’ve always been a band with the intention to create meaningful and artful music and we couldn’t be more proud to be releasing this to you all today. Art projects with five people take patience and perseverance and don’t come without their trying times, but if you believe in what you’re doing with all your heart and allow your process to be your progress, you come out with a product that blows even your own expectations out of the sky. Event Horizon is the result of 9 years as a band, 2 previous albums, hundreds of shows, hours upon hours of jamming, 2 years of recording and working on our upcoming album Action Potential, months of working on the video and of course, our dreams truly coming to life through the tapestry of music we make together as five friends.
Thank you everyone for your patience.
Thank you everyone for your belief in what we’re doing.
Thank you in advance to everyone for sharing this video and spreading our music and our message to your personal universes.
As much as we do this for ourselves, we do it to make a positive impact on our collective world and we couldn’t do that without YOU!
‘In the absence of time and space
I lick my lips of stardust and I taste
Theres something more to life.
Physicality in mortals space,
Is what you make.’
Much Love and Stardust all.
Since we started writing for the new album ACTION POTENTIAL, I reflect everyday on myself as a musician and a guitarist. Although I knew how to play our songs well, I continually practice my guitar playing skills everyday to evolve myself further. This was certainly the case in writing alot of my lead riffs for this album.
When I started tracking guitars for AUTONOMYS CONQUEST in the studio, I sat down with the opening riff that our other guitarist Jason wrote. At first I was so excited just to be playing along with such an awesome riff. I thought to myself “This is gonna be so much fun!”
Sadly, the inner demon that always followed me from all of my childhood crept up on me. It kept on whispering into my ear “You’re not good enough” or “You can do so much better”! Since I started playing guitar, my self concious fear had always followed me in learning guitar. From time to time it would get me down to the point where I felt hopeless, like “Man I’m never gonna be as good as that guy, etc”. Fortunately, tracking this song helped me to turn this thinking around. Rather than sulk into this negative energy, I decided to use it’s potential power for the better. I kept on playing over and over again until I came up with certain melodies to help compliment the flow of the song structure. Nothing overtly technical but something more aggressive than what I’ve been used to playing. It took hours which turned into days which turned into months to fine tune what I wrote.I had to step outside of my own zone and envision “How would a listener react to the song when first hearing it?”
Therefore, I have finished writing to the song. Now take a listen! If you love it then I’m happy. If you don’t then that’s okay. All I know is that I did my best and I continue to do so for POLARITY!
The phrase “skinny little shit” comes to mind when I think of my elementary and secondary school years. That was the insult I dreaded most. No other phrase made me feel more exposed, vulnerable and helpless. It was a cutting reminder that not only was I not able to defend myself against senseless physical attacks from cruel, freewheeling bullies; but I that didn’t have the body-type that girls were attracted to either. I felt trapped in what I thought were completely bullshit and unfair circumstances. What good was I?
Every morning I’d hope to wake up, look in the mirror, and discover that I’d miraculously filled out. And every morning would be the same: disappointment. Still skinny. Still a skinny little shit. Then I’d endure a surge of spine-tingling terror upon boarding the school bus. As it rode towards my daily 8-3 internment facility, I’d wonder:
Was this gonna be another day of being body-slammed into the pavement by some asshole prowling for an easy target? Was this gonna be another day of being giggled-at by some heartless chicks who think I have chicken arms?
Science tells us we learn through repetition.
Having these fears and many, many more like them on a near-constant repeat in my mind, they became my world. That’s when a dark and deep depression set in. One that lasted throughout my entire 20’s.
The thought that I was never going to be desirable or seen “as a man”, trivial it might seem, had much to do with that. Much descended from that. Reams and reams of various performance anxieties, chronic troubles keeping relationships together, falling grades in university, inability to keep a job, and an acute fear of being out in public (at the height of which I sequestered myself in a room for the better part of a year). I was having a hard time building a stable and healthy identity because I felt like a deeply abject, thin bag of flesh.
Body-shaming is a gender-universal experience. It affects BOTH men and women, neither more so or deeper so than the other. It’s gravely important to keep an open, inclusive dialogue about it’s causes.
My image of myself was shaped, in a large degree, by the humiliating words directed to it, and by the unfavourable comparisons I made to it (that I felt pressured into making). The shame of being a slender, “unmanly” figure developed into a dirty secret. I was always painfully self-conscious going to the beach, at pool parties, in change rooms, in intimate situations – even in public places wearing shorts and a t-shirt. Though I’d try to act like I wasn’t bothered by my shape, I was.
But here’s something I learned: admitting the truth is not only freeing, it’s empowering. When I admitted to myself that I was deeply embarrassed of my body weight, I realized I didn’t have to feel that way. My reasons for feeling that way weren’t in accord with how I pictured a thoughtful, intelligent, and fundamentally empathic person would think. And that’s the person I aim to be.
These shaming-thoughts turned out to be, in essence, incredibly useless. Cruel takedowns that accomplished nothing other than to induce social withdrawal and self-loathing in me.
What the hell is the point of that?
And that’s when I realized that I could be doing much better things with my heart and mind. Things that induce joy or happiness in me, as well as in others. Those formative forces that filled me with shame were, to put it bluntly, full of shit. They spoke nothing of worth or value. Suddenly there was no reason to listen to them. They were laughable noise.
That doesn’t mean I don’t still struggle with body-shaming issues. I do. But I know now how to listen, and what to listen to.
The journey to record ACTION POTENTIAL began years ago, with us wanting to push ourselves to the limits of our creativity.
This truly was the hardest record to track; it pushed me physically, mentally, and emotionally. There were many hardships and many struggles along the way; love loss, career changes, arrangement changes as well as not having a jam space for a significant amount of time.
There were definitely moments were it seemed to hard, where there was no light at the end of the tunnel, as if running uphill against a landslide.
After all of that WE in POLARITY stand before you all, our amazing and loyal fans, and THANK YOU so very much from the bottom of our hearts for sticking through this process with us.
WE now stand stronger than ever, united 110% as not only band mates, friends, but also a family, which includes all of you, are amazing FANS!
THE FUTURE HAS JUST BEGUN
POLARITY WILL BE HITTING HARDER THAN EVER
This is MY AUTONOMY’S CONQUEST
The beauty of POLARITY’s music is as a listener, you can either choose to put yourself in a members shoes or decide to interpret the music and lyrics for yourself, to apply to the ideals and issues you face every day in your unique life. So what’s unique in my life that this song applies to? What is my conquest for autonomy?
Well it’s not the happiest story of all time, but it sure is the un-sugar-coated truth and will explain my recent absences from social media. Over the last few years, I’ve noticed the comings and goings of some abdominal pains. They have been diagnosed and treated previously as a variety of things, once an injury, another time an infection. At some point in late February, these minor cramps began to turn into pains, inflammation and subsequently difficulty with a variety of bodily functions, that wouldn’t go away. Upon further study it appears the source of these pains has been a problem with my prostate. It’s important to share this with you because it has now become my sole conquest for autonomy. This is the next big fight in my life and, let’s get one thing straight, the next win under my belt. The Cole’s notes for those learning this the first time; I am currently on medical leave from my job. Physically, I’m limited, but I’m still able to play with the band for now. I’m still unaware of exactly what is wrong, but I have failed numerous prostate exams and am scheduled to see a Urological Oncologist at the end of June.
My apologies for the sad news, but this is just another battle to fight and win like so many before and since we try to be close to our fans, especially our local following who have become close friends over a decade, you deserve to be in the loop because it may cause some changes to happen in the near future. I am concentrating on taking care of myself, and contributing in any way I can to Polarity while you guys get to soak up twelve tracks of new material. This song is an audio representation of our past conquests, and an inspiration for tomorrows. Until next time, concentrate, and meditate.
By the way, nothing makes me happier than to see your responses to this song, especially the one mentioning how there is no longer a need to wait for the Tool album… man… I don’t have words for that lol! From all of us, thank you so much.
Saturday Night was the stuff dreams are made of.
It’s the type of night that’s happening so quickly and vividly you have to consciously take it in with a deep breath and ask yourself to hold it a little longer while the magic of it all lingers before your eyes. While holding the moment comes awareness – I’m exactly where I want to be; side stage in the artist tent stretching waiting to take the stage with my best buds in front of an audience of up to 800 people.
Thank you, pinch, thank you, pinch, repeat.
I had arrived with Eric around 3pm, the doors had been open since 12 and hundreds of camps were already set up. Sitana and Hammy had arrived an hour or so before us and Jason, well Jason had been there since Thursday night setting everything up.
Though they had been calling for rain all week, it turned out to be the perfect day with the cotton candy clouds over head and stars at night. Some of the first people I met were from the prairies and had called me over to their camp to let me know they planned their trip around this party, knew our band and were anxiously and excitedly awaiting our set much later on that evening.
What an epic way to start the day – people from across the country were excited for our set…sweet!
And it only got better from there, the day continued with hug ambushes from friends, fans and fellow musicians as we all saw one another for the first time, and there is absolutely no way a day filled with so many hugs can be anything but awesome.
The musical acts started at 2pm and were all high caliber talent. There wasn’t a dull moment because of the duel stages they had set up, the main stage and the acoustic stage. Affinity took to the acoustic stage around 8pm and as usual, put on a stellar show, their camp is fronted by fem vocalist extraordinare Ash Curtis who’s voice always blows me away! I highly recommend checking out this hard working Canadian Rock band!
Texas King were the band taking the stage before us and I had been forewarned they were awesome….I was not disappointed in the least, in fact I loved every second of their high energy blues/alt/soul rock set. Another, must check out.
We took the stage directly after people shaved their head for money and the crowd was packed. Party goers/music lovers/musicians crowded around the stage and fed us moshey energy all set long, my memory of our set is looking around the stage and seeing my band brothers up there with me having a great time, looking out and seeing all the friends I had made throughout the day with big smiles and head banging and…deep breaths….you need to take very deep breaths when you run around a big stage doing your best to keep up to very well oiled musicians while twiriling and singing….
After getting off the stage the rest of the night is a blur of enjoying Chuck Coles Set, rocking out with Say Yes, hanging out with other musicians including Ben Rispin of Saint Alvia Cartel, and Jordon Hastings of Alexis on Fire in the twinkle lit artist tent…. annnnnd getting approached from every angle by party goers wanting only to give their positive energy and belief to our dream; one concert goer said our set was ‘life changing’ and as the nights magic continued I was very aware of the absolute awesomeness of it all and very grateful to be one of the people blessed enough to experience it as an artist.
In fact, each one of us were exactly where we wanted to be, on stage when it was our time to create loud sound as a group, hanging with friends/fans in the tent city/enjoying all the bands and in Jasons case, behind the lighting console running an epic lighting show for all the bands!
Ben Rispin gave some incredibly encouraging words after our set letting me know we’ve come a long way in the last two years and that he knew industry people were listening and the name POLARITY was ever growing. I relayed my relief to hear this because sometimes it just doesn’t feel like you’re making progress…though in truth, I know we must embrace the process of the progress otherwise whats the point of it all? And truly, in my heart of hearts I know working towards POLARITY in any capacity IS progress.
Before I sign off/write a novel, there is no way I could finish this post without acknowledging Alanna Foell and her brother James Foell for creating The Barn Burner…a party of EPIC proportions not only for a good time but for a good cause. You two are the true facilitators of ten years of one magical night a year that truly unites people for the purpose of healing. So Thank you, thank you, thank you for reminding all of the people at The Barn Burner that connecting with others who appreciate you restores the spirit and gives you the energy to keep moving forward.
May we all keep taking one step in front of the other towards our dreams knowing process is progress towards magic filled nights where you wouldn’t want to be anywhere else in the world.
Thank you, pinch, repeat.
I know you haven’t heard much from me lately so I wanted to make a video to connect with all of you and with one very special POLARITY fan…could it be YOU?
Double bonus to watching the video; hearing the demo version of our song CHOKE in all it’s beautiful raw glory.